OMG, you guys. I’ve been working on this serial for so long I feel like I’m going to be lost once it’s launched. I’ve been doing the final edits for the first episode, and I just love these characters. The more I flesh out Naomi and Daniel and Jet, the more I just want to write all the things about them.
I wasn’t sure relaunching my Patreon page was going to be the right move for me. I’m still not sure. But my heart says it is. I love these characters, and I think they deserve their own place too. I meant for this to be the side gig, but it hasn’t turned out that way. It’s a risk, because it’s not going to make me money immediately, and maybe not at all, but I can’t stop myself from trying it.
Not to say I won’t write anything outside of Patreon. That’s obviously not true. It’s just been this big thing that I wanted to do.
I have this tendency to overthink things, overanalyze, and take too long to take a plunge. I’m one of those people that can’t just jump in the cold water. I have to get used to it by dipping a few toes in first. But eventually, I have to get in and swim.
There’s nothing wrong with being cautious. I think it’s a good way to be.
But at some point, there is a too cautious. You have to think about what’s right for you. I’ve missed out on a lot of fun things because I was too afraid to try, or I took too long to make the decision. I’ve lived my life erring on the side of caution. But maybe that is why Patreon will be good for me, and consequently, good for you guys as well.
Patreon is a risk for me, as a writer, and a person who isn’t that open of an individual on a daily basis. I’ve never really talked about me as a person, mostly just me as a writer. That is why I started allowing myself to be a creative, and not just a writer. I’m more than that, and I think I should show that part of myself more.
I should take the risk.
2018 is about Change for me. That was the word I chose to describe what I wanted to do with my year. Change is hard. Change is about pushing your limits. Change is taking risks.
My January word was Rebooting. Wiping the slate clean, getting ready for the changes I wanted to make.
February was Focus. Clarifying and streamlining my thoughts and feelings. I wanted to pick words each month that would relate back to Change.
My March word is Courage. Courage to take the risks I need to take. Courage to take the plunge into the cold water. I’m scared to death of it. But if I don’t have the courage and force myself into it, I’ll always think about it, but I’ll never do it. And that… I’m not going to be ok with that.
I dream big. I think many of us do. March is about doing one thing that scares the shit out of me every day. It’s about having the courage to conquer my own fears and hesitations.
I hope you guys will join me in my journey. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, mostly because of fear. Fear of success. Fear of failure. Even fear of being stagnant. This year is different. This month is about courage and risks. I don’t know what will happen. I don’t know that any of us do, honestly.
But I’m gonna try anyway.